DMX has been mourned by many since his dying final month, however none have grieved the loss greater than his household.
The rapper’s ex-wife Tashera Simmons opens up about his dying, legacy and last interview on the most recent episode of the PEOPLE Every Day podcast with host Janine Rubenstein.
“I am torn. Our children are suffering and trying to get to over that ‘not enough time with their dad’ thing; it’s a tough time,” she says. “At the same time … I used to think that this was insensitive to say, but I do believe he is in a better place, just because of the words he left me with. He was never afraid of passing on. And I used to be aggravated with that, but now I understand.”
DMX (born Earl Simmons) died April 9 at at White Plains Hospital in New York, one week after struggling a coronary heart assault. He was 50. The three-time Grammy Award nominee’s last interview is airing in two elements on TV One’s Uncensored, the primary of which aired Sunday.
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“I didn’t know that it was filmed,” Tashera, 50, says. “When they called me, I didn’t realize that this was the last interview that he’d done. And the things that he talked about in it were so powerful to them, stories that he spoke about of myself and him that I didn’t even remember, really, until… They literally had to replay it.”
Tashera and DMX have been married from 1999 to 2014, they usually shared sons Xavier, 28, Tacoma, 21, Sean, 18, and daughter Praise, 16. The couple met at 11 years previous, when she witnessed him steal a girl’s purse with the assistance of his canine. “Good girl loved bad boy,” she says.
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“The way they jogged past me and caught my vision, our eyes … and I was just like, ‘My hero,'” Tashera recounts. “I’m trying to find the words to explain what I’m trying to say. But it just felt right in a crazy moment. It felt right.”